Sometimes life seems so unpredictable that you really cant even imagine if whatever is happening is real.... Same is the case with me nowadays... I am not saying m not happy but these days nothing is "Really Good". Don't know why someone cant understand me. Its just like being all alone and trying to manipulate oneself that Everything is alright or going to be alright. But the question is "When?" a big question "But When?"....and the answer to this is simply "I don't know" ..."A BIG NO"....
I know this is just the starting...Everyone faces problems m not an exception but i really am an exception nowadays.....Missing all my buddies...my dear friends....my social network....and the most "My Skills"... All these are now just alien to me...It has been nearly 8 months..everything is changed since then...lot of things...I really don't know how I got this patience and from where but m really a little bit "unstable electron" who cant sit idle....but m not really idle....in fact m much more surrounded by "THINGS".... things like preparation, study, job, thoughts, career, family, future and bla bla bla....Lost so many things since then...
Just need a lot of determination so that I can prove myself to ME.
Situations are getting worse not that worse but worse at my level. I know there are so many people around having lot more problems than I have. But I did not had anyone to tell my "Thoughts"... so I just started writing...I really don't know What m writing or why m writing but still m writing...just to diverge my mind so that I can use it in right direction in an efficient way rather than thinking about something which doesn't have any real FORM. I just want to tell all those people who are really close to me that I am really missing them. M missing Prakash's Smile, Nammo's Mummi wala love, Oju's suggestions, Ashu's Confidence in me, Surbhi's Professional Cooperation, Srayosi's Wishes, Mukesh's Idiotic jokes.... These are those people who have been with me in every situation of my life n I would really like to thank all of them to make me feel special and to push me forward whenever I get disheartened.
Its a really tough time for me and m sure that I will get over this very soon. M just trying to be happy....coz u cant do anything if u r not happy...well I used to be a very happy n jolly person 2 years back...m trying get that personality of mine back. She was a person who was full of life and m really trying hard to get that. I have a strong belief that "Man k haare haar hai man k jeete jeet".....and there are some things for which i regret...“I don’t regret the things I’ve done, I regret the things I didn’t do when I had the chance.”
College life is over and i really did not enjoyed it but its my dream to be with all of my dear friends just one day....and enjoying every second of it.
I know this is just the starting...Everyone faces problems m not an exception but i really am an exception nowadays.....Missing all my buddies...my dear friends....my social network....and the most "My Skills"... All these are now just alien to me...It has been nearly 8 months..everything is changed since then...lot of things...I really don't know how I got this patience and from where but m really a little bit "unstable electron" who cant sit idle....but m not really idle....in fact m much more surrounded by "THINGS".... things like preparation, study, job, thoughts, career, family, future and bla bla bla....Lost so many things since then...
Just need a lot of determination so that I can prove myself to ME.
Situations are getting worse not that worse but worse at my level. I know there are so many people around having lot more problems than I have. But I did not had anyone to tell my "Thoughts"... so I just started writing...I really don't know What m writing or why m writing but still m writing...just to diverge my mind so that I can use it in right direction in an efficient way rather than thinking about something which doesn't have any real FORM. I just want to tell all those people who are really close to me that I am really missing them. M missing Prakash's Smile, Nammo's Mummi wala love, Oju's suggestions, Ashu's Confidence in me, Surbhi's Professional Cooperation, Srayosi's Wishes, Mukesh's Idiotic jokes.... These are those people who have been with me in every situation of my life n I would really like to thank all of them to make me feel special and to push me forward whenever I get disheartened.
Its a really tough time for me and m sure that I will get over this very soon. M just trying to be happy....coz u cant do anything if u r not happy...well I used to be a very happy n jolly person 2 years back...m trying get that personality of mine back. She was a person who was full of life and m really trying hard to get that. I have a strong belief that "Man k haare haar hai man k jeete jeet".....and there are some things for which i regret...“I don’t regret the things I’ve done, I regret the things I didn’t do when I had the chance.”
College life is over and i really did not enjoyed it but its my dream to be with all of my dear friends just one day....and enjoying every second of it.
After writing all these thoughts of mine which really are so stupid to read I came to the conclusion that "Happiness cannot be traveled to, owned, earned, or worn. It is the spiritual experience of living every minute with love, grace & gratitude"
So keep smiling all of u and be happy.... :)
